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Sunday, June 29, 2008 . 9:19 PM

today was kinda a long dae for me.. woke up bout 8plus den went to bathe.. Had to go down to church for service.. Was rather sad bout the turnout in church.. Seriously i jus cant think why people cant take aside time.. I mean its jus one sunday in a week, 4 days in a month.. I heard that i have to submit the yearly report and planning for the financial year of 2009 next week.. Pretty stressed with all these.. After service, i practiced the chinese song i'll be performing sometime in 2 plus weeks.. Kinda gettin the hang of it and ya.. its kinda high.. lol.. if u get my gist.. later went out with my family to get my sister her birthday gift.. After this week, saf dae would be over and i could be less stressed with onne thing.. Needa book into camp later.. Hope that this week would go smoothfully.. Tiredddd....

Friday, June 27, 2008 . 5:58 PM

This week was pretty long for me.. had to do the saf dae prep.. jus now i think i said something wrong and upset someone.. i duno wat i did... maybe if i hadn't spoken soo much.. :'(

Saturday, June 21, 2008 . 4:21 PM

Its been at least 2 weeks since i last blogged and many things happened inbetween.. This week has been reali long for me and i've been through so much that i sometimes feel like givin up.. Mondae was a pretty long dae cuz i was like in the office preparing the documents for SAF dae parade and all.. dun wanna talk bout it la.. i had guard duty that night too.. didn't get much slp.. den tuesdae came, i had to for some meeting and also had training.. super tiring la.. reali stressed with the army.. My pimples are like poppin out.. i have 2 now.. so depressing.. hais.. den i was doing the SAF dae parade stuff till like 1 plus in the morning.. everyone else was like slping la.. was kinda like upset cuz i was like all alone and the feelin is not reali good la.. wenesdae woke up at 5 plus to go down to SAFTI for the parade practice and i was like doin traffic control la.. i was in charge of the largest sector la.. and like that dae almost got into accident la.. slpt around 2 at night.. recieved a call i was waiting for and all that person asked for was top up card number.. That reali hurt.. i've been tryin my best and i dunno wat to do now.. feelin reali crappy.. woke up at 5 plus again on thursdae to go 4SAB to set up the PA system for the commanders dialogue and safety talk.. Super tired la.. good thing i did not fall aslp.. i had like less than 10 hrs of slp in 3 daes la.. was rather tired.. Fridae was on my way to the parade ar 6am in the vehicle and it was like raining reali heavily.. Was driving along the road and the a lightning jus stroke beside my vehicle lor.. I saw my life jus flash by and the happenings that took place.. this strike reali knocked me to my senses.. Life is so fragile and we could be gone anytime.. Im reali tired of this kinda life and i was wondering if God was tryin to take me home but He kinda missed.. :( den later in the dae i was like almost knocked down by both an army vehicle and a commercial bus.. This is too close for comfort.. Im reali tired.. hais.. Saturdae brought my grandma and dad and sister outta eat.. ordered curry fish head and other stuff for them eat.. kinda ate bread and curry but din reali have any appetite la.. jus finished practice and im wishin that things can get better.. Falling sick and i can jus feel it comin.. hais.. nvm..

Thursday, June 12, 2008 . 10:04 PM

Monday i had soc training in the morning and it was rather tiring.. need to draw rifle and all den still need to wear the combat uniform.. After that i was like sabo-ed by my warrant officer to join him for the meeting la.. and as usual i was the lowest ranking there again.. Had a meeting for SAF day from 3pm till like late at night.. Super tired lor.. Then my branch kena arrowed to do the designing for SAF dae la.. den i kena all the work lor.. tuesdae went outcamp to recce the place they were gonna hold the parade.. We had to like fix the holding area and all the scanning areas.. Den need to design the different signs for the occassion.. wednesdae was doin the design for SAF dae.. I was like the oni one doin it la.. Super stressed den suddenly came up a deadline to finish it by next wednesdae.. Den later i was like super upset by some message.. it was rather saddening la.. 4get it!!!

Sunday, June 8, 2008 . 7:22 PM

This week haven reali been in the best of moods la.. Im rather stressed out with the army stuff cuz there was like the security checks and all those physical training.. I mean the people in the army are quite insensitive to the need to the soldiers.. Jus to win the best unit competition and all, they train us like animals.. I'm getting reali tired of the training.. There is no time for recovery la.. Then also got the SAF day coming up and i have to go design all the stuff needed for the occasion.. I hope that next week's training would be better.. We having our youth camp this comin week on fri to sun.. Planned everything alr and hope that it would be better than the last.. Took leave on fri from the army.. I duno if approved yet so i hope that can go.. Yesterdae marked an important dae.. Its my 1st year mark in the army.. I have like 363 days left in the army.. I hope it hurry ends then i can be free.. They goin off on the 13th.. i hope and pray that they will be kept safe.. sighhh.. pretty upset la.. this week was tryin to keep myself occupied with stuff.. I read this reali good book.. Its called extreme church makeover. Its a reali good book.. I hope that i can make a difference after all this.. I wanna see growth in the church and i wanna see maturity in the youths in the church.. One very impt point is that we have to know our purpose in the church and that the church is not a hospital to the wounded BUT it is a military outpost to storm the enemy's fortress.. I think its reali impt to understand that point so we can know wat we have to do.. Another point brought up was that we have to know the enemy's agenda.. Satan wants to divide us.. Divide the mind so that a double minded person would be unstable in his ways, divide the home so that a home divided against itself cannot stand and divide the body of christ because united we stand, divided we fall. I think we need to stand together and face the storm and there would be a rainbow after the rain.. I reali hope that this day would come soon cuz im reali dry and tired.. Im on the verge of givin up.. I seriously need someone to understand and help me.. Today at church i was pretty upset with the people.. Why cant they jus worship God for who He is and all.. I mean its not as if we would be paid if more people worship.. Hais.. I made a lot of mistakes while playing and i was not able to concentrate la.. Gotta be strong and carry on.. No matter how hard it is..

Saturday, June 7, 2008 . 8:15 PM

Todae i woke up at like 6 plus 7 lidat and it was raining lor.. Super nice weather to slp in la.. had a reali lovely time this morning and i was like bein cheered up by someone special la.. hahas.. i was like in bed from then till about around 10 plus la.. den my dad came in and scolded me for not washin my army clothes.. I was like ok wait but i still got scolded.. :( After that accompanied my grandma for breakfast.. brought her out to eat la.. den i accompanied my younger sister to ACM to get information for her to write her report.. It was like raining and i was like almost drenched la.. Todae i wasn't reali in the best of moods.. Pretty stressed with the youth stuff and church.. Still got other stuff.. I dun understnad at times wats happening.. It jus happens so fast.. Went to church for practice and i wasn't reali able to concentrate on it.. i cant explain the feelin.. Jus feelin reali lousy.. i reali duno y i do.. been soooo long... HAIS!!! :'[
Thursdae i had ippt test and i was like super choinging la.. did pretty well and then later had to go office to settle some admin stuff.. There was this security check that was gonna be conducted and i was checking for errors.. good thing i was lookin through the keypress book and found like 2 mistakes la.. If not i sure sign extra duties wan.. then came fridae.. again i was praying for rain and it looked like it was gonna rain in the mornin but sighhhh it dint.. went for my 12 km run and i was like super super tired liao la.. finished in the top 20.. i cant stop thinkin..... hais.....

Wednesday, June 4, 2008 . 12:53 PM

Mondae i had to represent the signal warrant officer to sit in a meeting about SAF dae.. Waited for like an hour before they started the meeting.. I was like the lowest ranking person in there la.. There was like 7 captains, 1 major and 2 master sgts.. and im a lowly sgt.. hais.. Was arrowed to do many things.. My warrant officer is in charge on the overall design of SAF dae and im sure He'll 'arrow' me to do it lor.. After the meeting, i skipped lunch and rushed down for my ICCT revision and mock grading test.. Was super tired la.. kinda got injured while training but its ok.. Tuesdae was in the office designing SAF day stuff.. Then went for my ICCT test.. Did pretty well.. Was rather tired after the stick fighting.. Todae an officer came into my branch and asked me to design the batallion anniversary cake.. Its was rather ok i guess.. Was rather upset but a comment jus now.. Its like i was in the S3 branch (Operations) when a junior officer asked me some questions and some people were 'arrowed' to run in some trail.. then they were like blaming me for it when it was a direct order from the higher authorities.. I reali dun understand why these people are lidat.. Its not me who decided all these la.. In office and im not supposed to use this.. FRUSTRATED!!!!!!

Sunday, June 1, 2008 . 4:03 PM

Last night slpt early cuz i was reali tired.. I like fell aslp almost immediately after chargin my phone la.. this morning went to church and i was quite upset bout the turnout in church.. Why issit that people cant jus commit themselves.. i mean its like jus one dae in a week, 4 daes in a month that they come to church la.. Issit reali that difficult?? hais.. she came to church todae.. made a few mistakes during the praise and worship.. Was kinda thinkin bout lotsa things.. Jus now i felt like a piece of plastic as tho i was transparent.. That feeling is reali indescribable.. hais.. i thought maybe if i dun think bout it, it wouldn't hurt jus as much.. but its like i cant help but do it.. hais.. it jus issnt the same anymore.. how do i and how can i face up with reality?? i reali duno wat to do liao.. i reali dunno wat i was thinkin and doin la.. i'm lost.. later still have to go back to camp.. sighhhh!!! I jus heard something on tv... courage is not the absence on fear but jus that there is something more important than fear in life.. i hope that one dae i can face this all with courage.. hais..

uncovered

Name: Jonathan Ng
 Chinese: 黄腾永
1st cry: 10 Sept '86
 Weight: 75kg
Height: 175cm
 Gender: Male
Race: Chinese
 Religion: Christianity
Occupation: SAF NSF
 Church: CCR


loves

Instruments: Guitar, Drum, Bass Guitar, Piano
 Colors: Black, Blue, White, Red, Purple
Food:
Drink: Coke, China Apple, Mountain Dew
Bands: Hillsong, Planetshakers, Isreal & New Breed, Avalon, JujuSong & New Springs Band
 Artists: Chris Tomlin, Don Moen, Clay Croose
Hangout: In my bed
 Books: Cat & Dog Theology, Daring To Live On The Edge(Lorren Cunningham)
Movies: Music & Lyrics, Hairspray, Black Hawk Down, Drumline, I Am Legend

hates

-> Hypocrites
 -> Liars
-> Compromisers
 -> Backstabbers
-> Unfeeling People
 -> Being Alone


wishlist

1. El Guitar
 2. Bass Guitar
3. Piano
 4. Effects Pedal
5. Nike Shoes
 6. Addidas Watch
7. Ipod 80gb
 8. Alfa Romeo
9. HER

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