Sunday, October 12, 2008 . 6:27 PM
This week has been rather stressful for me.. had quite a lot of tests for me.. i even failed one of my assessments.. passed it a day after tho.. this tuesdae would be goin for my TP already.. After that should be able to get my liscence.. hope i pass my driving test.. been a reali tiring week for me.. sometimes i wish there was someone who could understand how i reali felt but its hard to find a person who does.. and when u have and then lost it again, the feeling is even worse.. been reminded a lot of my past.... oh ya.. lately i've been like quite blessed.. almost met with 3 accidents while i was driving on the public road.. den the other dae, i was being transported to the other camp in this bus den i was like sitting in front den the bus was involved in a accident.. knocked into two cars.. i was like super lucky la.. but look on the bright side.. it isnt too bad a thing to be called back 'home' earlier rite.. hahas.. todae i was rather dissapointed with the turnout at youth.. its like issit so hard jus to commit oneself jus one dae for God.. hais.. i sometimes feel reali dry.. its like i could choose to join any big church and jus go there every sundae and go back again.. its nice to be where there are many people and sae i feel that God's presense is there and whoaaaa the worship here is powerful.. i mean its jus how humans presume and assume how God would move.. I reali dun like the preconceptions that we humans have.. we cannot denote how God would move and everything.. Tho the church is small, i would rather stay in my church and serve the people here.. life is not always about takin but givin.. as long as i've given my best, i would jus wanna go back home and tell God i've done my part.. thats the best i can do.. people give excuses that theres exams, sku, work, projects etc but have anyone ever considered how it is for me.. mon to sat im at camp and i spend my sat and sun in church.. and the cycle goes on.. i cant possibly sae im too tired God.. see u next week.. i mean would God be like... I'm tired.. u're on ur own todae... do whatever u wan.. No lor.. so why cant we have the same attitude.. i mean goin to church is a commitment and not a chore.. its a pact between u and God.. i do feel like giving up at times.. i mean if no one is willing to make the effort den why should i.. but as i think back, maybe if i do my best and play my part, others would see it and try too.. i reali duno how long i can hold out.. trying to stay positive.. goin back to camp later.. hope this week would turn out better..
Sunrise or Sunset??
What we see is determined by our attitude.. think possitive.. watch the sunrise.. a new day has come.. i'm wishing u all the best.. (u know who)